Monday, December 13, 2010
All because of Christ
Though am extremely happy and content with my job situation, I am quite down about my spiritual life. It is not the same and there is no one else to blame but myself. Ever feel like you cannot go back to God? or the distance that has grown between the two of you feels like a thousand miles? This is where my heart is. I long for the desire to grow with God, I want to and yet I feel empty. Emotions should not rule the day and lies are born from them..lies the enemy uses against us. So my lesson for this week and the call to my heart is to press on despite the distance "i feel". I put it in quotes because God says He is always near us and ready to answer when we call. There are so many promises in the Word about how He hears our cry and gives attention when we call.
The other night, I had a second episode of what I call the speechless prayer. I got on my knees and all I could do was cry. There were no words and when I tried to speak, my heart just felt even more weary. I remembered how the Spirit intercedes for us as we lack the words to send to heaven, to our Lord. That was comforting and I just sat in silence and in tears. I am overwhelmed by God's love and continued grace and I know there is no other best friend I could ever have that could do what God does for me every single day. I know no one who can take so much rejection in a day, every time I choose to do things my way and ignore His words. I know no one who could be as patient as Adonai, NO ONE. The amount of mistakes I have made in 2010 are a witness to his patience, love, grace and especially His mercy. They are seriously new every morning and there is no substitute. I refuse to listen to the enemy...I am not too far from God, I am only a prayer away. I am only a prayer away. All I have to do is seek Him fervently, I have to seek Him with all I have.
I have understood the pressure of not having a strong spiritual circle around me to keep me accountable. I know the loneliness of having all my loved ones far and my best of friends nations away. I have gotten there, and God has held me through it all even the serious mistakes I have made. I stand as a witness to His grace, His absolutely perfect grace which has held me so close to His heart. No matter how far we drift away, we have to learn that God is constantly there trying to call us back every single moment, we just have to listen. He is always right there. ALWAYS.
My encouragement to whoever is reading this is that God knows you, He knows your heart, He knows what you are facing, He is there in your joy and in your sorrow. There are so many things in my heart that I have to sort out with Him but I know I am welcomed in His presence just as I am. Isaiah 1:18 is one of the best promises ever. He says that though your sins are crimson, they shall be white as snow..He promises forgiveness everyday. Walk in His forgiveness and in His grace.
Thursday, October 7, 2010
No conditional christianity
I choose today to devote my heart, soul, mind, will, strength to Him. Easier said than done for sure. God does not expect perfection, rather He wants permission to be the perfect one in you, to work through you to make you a vesse that He can pour through. Your weaknesses are His stage to show His strength to others. Embrace the journey, accept to wak with Him in weakness or in Ss
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Commitment calls
My mission this week oct 7-9 is to spend time in prayer. Thats it. May it be 15 min a day or 45! Who knows. I want to hold myself accountable. I write it here because it s a way to do this......
Sunday, October 3, 2010
My Words to You
Let your Words rest in my Spirit
May they rise with each dawn
May they guide my path as i face each day
I wake at the sound of your majestic voice
and I say, let your words be my soul's food
May they be my heart's one and only desire
May they flow out of my mouth and draw my destiny
I hold on to your Words, firm and true
Promises never broken, faithful to the end
Let your Words rest in me....
what I have learned in the last 6 weeks
Friday, September 17, 2010
really asking for direction
That is my prayer this day and for the rest of my life. I have such a passion to be an ambassador for God in the Kenyan government and I want to establish that in His hands. I want him to show me the right path. I don't want to listen to everyone or compare their journey to mine. The truth remains that the Lord has different destinies for each of us. Seek ye first the Kingdom the Word says...That is the first step in going on the right path. As long as we remain in God's presence and in continual communion with Him, He'll show us the way. We have to eliminate everything that is distracting our minds, hearts and souls. We have to deliberately fix our eyes on Christ so that we can see ahead of us.
The song 'Thy Word' was on my heart this morning. It says 'thy word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path'. Our dependence on God and what He has to say is the difference between walking in the light versus walking in the dark. As long as we are not in His word, we can assume we are walking in the dark i.e. our own so called wisdom. To be honest, its hard to determine what exactly is my right path. Am I in God's will every second? I mean how can I tell? I've come to learn that God is fantastic in the way He opens doors when they should be and where they should be, we just need to learn to discern. That right there is a whole other level but thank God, He is there for us. So step 1, follow His Word and slowly but surely you will begin to see the path. Embrace the opportunities that come your way and let them shape you for your destiny.
Acknowledge God in everything, before you do anything...bathe it in prayer and God will lead you forward.
Amen....ahh...sigh. WOW. All a process of discovery. It wouldn't be of God if it was all simple and all set up already for us to just walk into. One person once said, it is never about the destination but about the journey. Let God work and you sit back and pray...
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Hardest word to hear: Surrender
Imagine the same with the Lord. He is here to build a relationship with us. If you are a Christian, have chosen to give Him your heart and your life and every day is a process of surrender. It begins when you accept Him as your Saviour. You said, I trust you to lead my life from now onwards. So why hold on to parts of you that He ought to have? I speak to myself as I write this and maybe I should just write it as such.
I know that God knows best, I know that God has great plans for me but I still choose to worry. I still choose to hold on and try to steer the wheel. It is hard to be honest with myself and say, you know what? I don't think God has EVERY part of me. In this relationship, God is really trying to reach out to me and declare His wisdom hoping that I will listen and let go of whatever it is am trying to control. My song now to Him, is my life is in your hands. I want to let the Lord reign. Its time to let Him guide me, to listen to make sure prayer is a conversation and not a monologue. To be quiet and still in His presence so that I can hear from Him. I want to give Him time to be God in my life once again.
I'll point out a few verses that speak volumes to me right now.
Verse 3 talks about committing your work to God and He'll establish your steps..
Where I am right at this moment, this is my verse that points to surrender. Surrendering my desires to Him and He makes way for them. I have fought hard to understand, to try and catch a glimpse of where He may possibly wanting me to God and I have honestly battled to make sense of any and every trial that has come my way. I have analyzed and speculated but all that can be said is "all things work together for good for those who love God".
Exodus 14:14 says The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.
2 Chronicles 20: 17 You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the LORD will give you, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the LORD will be with you.' (The Lord's encouragement to King Jehosophat when he was being invaded by three different armies)
I love how the Message puts it, you won't even need to lift a finger. And the way the people from Jehosophat's city made it through the battle was obviously the Lord's deliverance but this occurred as they were PRAISING the Lord and sought the Lord by prayer and fasting. Worship is armor in our battle and I believe prayer is our way of beckoning the Lord to act on our behalf. We do need to be ready for the fight and we do that by constantly being in worship daily, not just sunday.
I know my thoughts have not really flowed and I may have touched on several topics but I had to write what He is teaching me =). Stay encouraged, surrender your will and embrace the Lord.
Thursday, September 9, 2010
As I lay my head
Saturday, September 4, 2010
Resonating Words to My Soul
v. 15
Said — Being hot and thirsty, he expresses how acceptable a draught of that water would be to him; but was far from desiring, or expecting that any of his men should hazard their lives to procure it.
v. 16 Would not — Lest by gratifying himself upon such terms, he should seem either to set too high a price upon the satisfaction of his appetite, or too low a price upon the lives of his soldiers.
Poured it — As a kind of drink offering, and acknowledgment of God's goodness in preserving the lives of his captains in so dangerous an enterprize; and to shew, that he esteemed it as a sacred thing, which it was not fit for him to drink.
PS:: He acknowledges his condition saying truly he just desired it and put His men at a risk of losing their lives. The fact that God saved them proved that it was not fitting for him to drink it...WOW! am still digesting this devotional. It is challenging for sure....
Hope it makes you evaluate your desires and whether you are just trying to feed your appetite like David.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
All I can think of is REBIRTH...
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
am in need of a resurrection..nicole sponberg
Monday, August 30, 2010
Alicia Britt Chole's Words to You...
The journey back from collapse
The Lord said, "Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the Lord, for the Lord is about to pass by." 1 Kings 19.11
Elijah was absolutely exhausted.
He faced and defeated 450 false prophets. He climbed a mountain to earnestly intercede for drought-ending rain. He ran for twenty-five miles faster than the King's chariot. And now, in what should have been a moment of victory, wicked Jezebel sent word that she was planning to kill him.
That was it. He was done. The combination of post-ministry exhaustion and fear of man was just too much. Elijah ran for his life, "and prayed that he might die. 'I have had enough, Lord,' he said. 'Take my life; I am no better than my ancestors.'" (1 Kings 19.4)
Though few of us have faced several hundred prophets of Baal, we do understand extreme weariness. The stresses of work and finances, the strains of relationships and conflicts, and the realities of spiritual opposition leave us feeling fatigued. Add a crisis to that normal load, and we can collapse altogether.
How did Elijah journey from collapse to a place where he had the strength to obey God again? Typically to answer that question we turn to Elijah’s encounter with God on Mount Horeb. But even before his incredible mountain experience, Elijah was regaining strength in small and seemingly insignificant ways in the desert. How?
1. Elijah prayed. After running from Jezebel, an isolated Elijah plopped down under a scruffy tree in the desert and prayed. Yes, it was a pretty miserable prayer, but he was still talking to God and every little bit helps!
2. (and 5 and 9) Elijah slept. No instant cures exist for fatigue. Our bodies cannot be plugged into an outlet and revived in an hour. There are no substitutes for time and rest.
3. (and 6) Elijah was touched by an angel. When we are exhausted, God sends His messengers to us in many forms: the hug of a child, a call from a friend, the touch of a loved one. God’s arms are long enough to reach us, even in the desert.
4. (and 7) Elijah ate. Some of us wish we would lose our appetite! But for those of us who actually do, we must remember to eat. In his state of weariness, Elijah enjoyed angelic cuisine.
8. Then Elijah encountered God on the mountain. After a very long walk, Elijah arrived at Mount Horeb. God instructed him to, "Go out and stand on the mountain in the presence of the Lord, for the Lord is about to pass by."(1 Kings 19.10-11)
There Elijah saw a shattering wind, an earthquake, and a fire, "but the Lord was not in" them. During these three powerful events Elijah heard NOTHING which could have been a bit frustrating. So perhaps we should not be surprised when we hear nothing also. And perhaps we should be encouraged that in the midst of silence &mdash even when it is the last thing we want to hear &mdash something in the waiting still works to strengthen our souls.
God was in the gentle whisper. There God and Elijah exchanged the identical dialogue they had in the cave:
The word of the Lord came to him: "What are you doing here, Elijah?" He replied, "I have been very zealous for the Lord God Almighty. The Israelites have rejected your covenant, broken down your altars, and put your prophets to death with the sword. I am the only one left, and now they are trying to kill me too." 1 Kings 19.13-14
Creativity runs low when we are exhausted. So Elijah repeated his previous response: "I have done my best but nothing seems to make a difference. I am all alone and some people would be happier if I were gone."
Elijah's words have not changed much from his prayer under the tree in the desert but his weariness has obviously subsided because when God gives Elijah directions, the prophet has sufficient strength to obey.
Certainly the concentration of God's presence on the mountain strengthened Elijah, but God's presence in the desert carried him there. In minute yet meaningful ways, God's presence was refreshing Elijah all along as he slept and ate, walked and prayed, was touched by angels and waiting for God to speak.
As we journey from collapse back to a point where we have strength to obey, let us be careful to not underestimate the desert. The mountain is amazing, but the desert is equally full of God's presence to refresh our lives.
Resting in God’s Truth...
• God can bring us back from collapse.
• That journey includes weak prayers, much rest, good food, long walks, and the touch of a few angels.
• In the desert as well as on the mountain, God’s exhausted sons and daughters will find restoration in His Presence.