really asking for direction

Psalm 25:4 (NLT) says 'Show me the right path, O Lord; point out the road for me to follow'


That is my prayer this day and for the rest of my life. I have such a passion to be an ambassador for God in the Kenyan government and I want to establish that in His hands. I want him to show me the right path. I don't want to listen to everyone or compare their journey to mine. The truth remains that the Lord has different destinies for each of us. Seek ye first the Kingdom the Word says...That is the first step in going on the right path. As long as we remain in God's presence and in continual communion with Him, He'll show us the way. We have to eliminate everything that is distracting our minds, hearts and souls. We have to deliberately fix our eyes on Christ so that we can see ahead of us. 


The song 'Thy Word' was on my heart this morning. It says 'thy word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path'. Our dependence on God and what He has to say is the difference between walking in the light versus walking in the dark. As long as we are not in His word, we can assume we are walking in the dark i.e. our own so called wisdom. To be honest, its hard to determine what exactly is my right path. Am I in God's will every second? I mean how can I tell? I've come to learn that God is fantastic in the way He opens doors when they should be and where they should be, we just need to learn to discern. That right there is a whole other level but thank God, He is there for us. So step 1, follow His Word and slowly but surely you will begin to see the path. Embrace the opportunities that come your way and let them shape you for your destiny. 


Acknowledge God in everything, before you do anything...bathe it in prayer and God will lead you forward. 


Amen....ahh...sigh. WOW. All a process of discovery. It wouldn't be of God if it was all simple and all set up already for us to just walk into. One person once said, it is never about the destination but about the journey. Let God work and you sit back and pray... 

Hardest word to hear: Surrender

As I read today's devotional about surrender, I couldn't help but think 'have I done it completely not selectively?' Its easy for us to say, Okay Lord, you can have my heart and my soul but not my mind or will. Most of the time it is not really even said. Our actions show this to the Lord. We make decisions without even praying or discerning whether God is supporting us or not. We tell Him, hey by the way I decided a,b,c because I felt like it was the right thing to do and everything worked towards the decision. It seemed positive Lord, so I went for it. Just imagine if you were in a marriage and you told that to your wife or husband. The result would be chaotic and I guarantee if things would not change after a few instances of that, the marriage would eventually come to a bitter end. 


Imagine the same with the Lord. He is here to build a relationship with us. If you are a Christian, have chosen to give Him your heart and your life and every day is a process of surrender. It begins when you accept Him as your Saviour. You said, I trust you to lead my life from now onwards. So why hold on to parts of you that He ought to have? I speak to myself as I write this and maybe I should just write it as such.


 I know that God knows best, I know that God has great plans for me but I still choose to worry. I still choose to hold on and try to steer the wheel. It is hard to be honest with myself and say, you know what? I don't think God has EVERY part of me. In this relationship, God is really trying to reach out to me and declare His wisdom hoping that I will listen and let go of whatever it is am trying to control. My song now to Him, is my life is in your hands. I want to let the Lord reign. Its time to let Him guide me, to listen to make sure prayer is a conversation and not a monologue. To be quiet and still in His presence so that I can hear from Him. I want to give Him time to be God in my life once again.


I'll point out a few verses that speak volumes to me right now. 

Prov. 16:1-2, 9 

The plans of the heart belong to man, but the answer of the tongue is from the Lord.

All the ways of man are pure in his own eyes but the Lord weighs the spirit.

The heart of man plans his way but the Lord establishes his steps.

Verse 3 talks about committing your work to God and He'll establish your steps..


Where I am right at this moment, this is my verse that points to surrender. Surrendering my desires to Him and He makes way for them. I have fought hard to understand, to try and catch a glimpse of where He may possibly wanting me to God and I have honestly battled to make sense of any and every trial that has come my way. I have analyzed and speculated but all that can be said is "all things work together for good for those who love God". 


Exodus 14:14 says The LORD will fight for you; you need only to be still.


2 Chronicles 20: 17 You will not have to fight this battle. Take up your positions; stand firm and see the deliverance the LORD will give you, O Judah and Jerusalem. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged. Go out to face them tomorrow, and the LORD will be with you.' (The Lord's encouragement to King Jehosophat when he was being invaded by three different armies)


I love how the Message puts it,  you won't even need to lift a finger. And the way the people from Jehosophat's city made it through the battle was obviously the Lord's deliverance but this occurred as they were PRAISING the Lord and sought the Lord by prayer and fasting. Worship is armor in our battle and I believe prayer is our way of beckoning the Lord to act on our behalf. We do need to be ready for the fight and we do that by constantly being in worship daily, not just sunday. 


I know my thoughts have not really flowed and I may have touched on several topics but I had to write what He is teaching me =).  Stay encouraged, surrender your will and embrace the Lord. 

As I lay my head

Its really late but I needed to just blog some thoughts and maybe speak to a heart or two. Simply put, I am constantly reminded of God's grace and how it really is sufficient in our weakness. He literally perfects His strength in our weaknesses like 2 Cor 12:9 says.

If you actually seek God, you will find Him. He is always ready to be found, it is us who do not seek Him. It is me. I find Him then for a while we are good then tables turn and life deals me a hard hand to play, then He is forgotten somewhere in the mix. In my human reaction to hard/difficult situations is to think, I have to control this or figure a way out. Why fight a battle thats already been won? why worry when the Word says it will not add a single day to your life. In my weakness of trying to figure things out, I am stepping aside and letting His power come in and work its perfection. I refuse to let Cheruto get in the way anymore. I make these trials even longer than they should be when I try to make it on my own.

Its amazingly stupid when we actually try to take control of things that are NOT meant to be controlled by our own human hands. God made the universe, look how awesome it is! Surely I can trust Him with the details of my life. He knows so much, He has so much wisdom and is one to run to when life is uncertain and I lack direction. He loves to be there for me. For you. So run to Him... seek and you will find Him. Knock on His door and He is more than glad to open for you. In fact He has been waiting for you to knock.

Release it child, give it to Me..He says.

Come to me all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. Matthew 11:28-30

Resonating Words to My Soul

You can NEVER set apart for God something that you desire for yourself to achieve your own satisfaction. If you try to satisfy yourself with a blessing from God, it will CORRUPT you. You must sacrifice it, pouring it out to God— something that your common sense says is an absurd waste.........If you are always keeping blessings to yourself and never learning to pour out anything “to the Lord,” other people will never have their vision of God expanded through you.

My Utmost for His Highest September 3rd Devotional

I read those words and I was speechless. The words hit me harder than ever before. Sure I've heard, pour things out to God and thank Him for blessings. Devote them to Him and live it out in gratitude but coming to the realization that hoarding a blessing or a gift can corrupt me? and 'other people will never have their vision of God expanded through" me? That is pure truth and a true heart test. What blessings haven't I poured out to the Lord? What have I hoarded with all my strength and all the might I could muster?

The saying goes, if you love something, let it go.. do not hold it so hard because you may suck the life out of it. I think thats how the saying goes =).

The scripture for this devotional was 2 Samuel 23:16 which talks about the water of Bethlehem.

¹⁵ David longed for water and said, "Oh, that someone would get me a drink of water from the well near the gate of Bethlehem!" ¹⁶ So the three mighty men broke through the Philistine lines, drew water from the well near the gate of Bethlehem and carried it back to David. But he refused to drink it; instead, he poured it out before the LORD. ¹⁷ "Far be it from me, O LORD, to do this!" he said. "Is it not the blood of men who went at the risk of their lives?" And David would not drink it.

David desired it so much for his own satisfaction but the key part of this is that he poured it out before the Lord. I read a commentary on it and here is how it broke down the verses.

v. 15

Said — Being hot and thirsty, he expresses how acceptable a draught of that water would be to him; but was far from desiring, or expecting that any of his men should hazard their lives to procure it.

v. 16 Would not — Lest by gratifying himself upon such terms, he should seem either to set too high a price upon the satisfaction of his appetite, or too low a price upon the lives of his soldiers.

Poured it — As a kind of drink offering, and acknowledgment of God's goodness in preserving the lives of his captains in so dangerous an enterprize; and to shew, that he esteemed it as a sacred thing, which it was not fit for him to drink.

PS:: He acknowledges his condition saying truly he just desired it and put His men at a risk of losing their lives. The fact that God saved them proved that it was not fitting for him to drink it...WOW! am still digesting this devotional. It is challenging for sure....

Hope it makes you evaluate your desires and whether you are just trying to feed your appetite like David.

All I can think of is REBIRTH...

My spirit is screaming time for rebirth, renewal, just want another start. Ever been there where you want God to just make you over? Just want another beginning. Taunet Nelel, in my language. A clean slate. This is where I'll be fully honest with what I am facing. I am ready for change.

2010, what can I tell you? You've been a hard year. Yes, life is not meant to ever get easier, this I know. Its been a fight, its been walking away from the darkness brokenness and into the light of God's love and grace. He has carried me through this year but I walked away for a while. I was distracted, confused and just needed a solution RIGHT THEN. I didn't want to wait but it is always the most helpful thing to wait on the Lord. I am witness to that.

I am in a stage where I'm ready for God to act, ready for God to show up, ready to seek again. Fall in love passionately with Him all over again. Let Him have my heart and ask Him to empty me of everything that has taken up His place there. I am ready to just SEEK FIRST THE KINGDOM. I will have nothing if I do not have God to begin with. That is just truth.

I love Him for His grace because, if it were me..I would have left Cheruto a long time ago. Like the Footprints story, I think I finally see the one set of footprints when God held me next to his bosom and said 'child, just rest..am here, you don't have to fight, you don't need to fight. Just lean on me. I've been there, I bore that same pain. I cried the same tears. So trust me when I say, I am carrying you through this.'

Amen